Kesayangan ❤

Salam Ramadhan ke 27 J

Bagaimana puasa kita? Adakah sekadar menahan lapar dan dahaga?

Jom muhasabah.

Hampir 3 bulan sudah berada di rumah. Dan hampir 3 bulan juga sudah berpraktikal. Salah? Memangggg. Aku memang malas kira. Hahaha. Let the time flow by itself. 

Hari kemarin, 04 Ogos 2013 adalah hari yang ditunggu tunggu (lah sangat) sebab sekian lama merancang Alhamdulillah akhirnya menjadi jua. Sempena kepulangan kesayangan, jadi kami pun plan la buka puasa sesama reramai. Sesuka hati guna kata ganda memang ketara sangat malas menaip. -___-

Inilah kesayangan yang disambut tiba kemarin dan kononnya suprise utk familylahhh sangat :p

Pertama tu, ingatkan plan nda menjadi kan kononnya. Sebab kol sana sini ada yang nda angkat la, nda reply text la, nda dapat ikut la apa la. Bikin panas la kesimpulannya, jadi lepas membuat pengiraan kami pun menjangkakan semacam 5 orang ja yang dapat datang untuk buka puasa sesama. Tapi dengan hati yang kecewa, kami terpaksa juga menggagahkan diri, ecehhh untuk berbuka puasa sesama walaupun la 5 orang. Tapi bila kumpul kumpul semua jumpa di tempat yang dijanjikan, jadi ramai la pula. Sebab yang nda sambut kol tu kononnya buat suprise untuk kami. Hmmpp siapalah tu kan pffftt =p

"Perangai memang nda pernah berubah." (Naziha, 2013)

Nda sangka 23 tahun sudah mereka semuanya sobss sobsssss except me yang baru 21. Hmmm

Pegi kedai makan yang pertama, nda ble sambung meja lah apalah. Apa barang restorann nda ble sambung meja. Kihkih. And lastly, jumpa juga tempat makan. Dan tiba masa untuk Iftar. Yeaaa weeeee :D

Tudung biru paling kuat makan. TQ

Masa Iftar tu, terjumpa dua orang kawan lama. Kina & Buyay. Nda sangka masih ingat lagi. Terharuuuu. *cross finger* =p Hehekss. Dorang dua berbuka puasa dengan family & kawan kawan. Tapi nda apala yang penting dapat jumpa selepas sekian lamanya tidak berjumpa rindu rasa hati. 

Sebelum makan, macam biasalah tiada aktiviti lain selain pot pet pot pet huha huha haaa tapi masa makan tau juga senyap. Pelik. Dan sambung lagi aktiviti huha huha selepas makan. Memang perangai nda berubah dari sekolah menengah sebab kami masih anggap restoran tu sebagai dewan makan asrama. Alangkah biadapnya. *gegeleng kepala* Nasib baiklah tiada yang memulakan aktiviti menghumban kulit tembikai selepas makan ke meja seblah. hihiksss

Dan malam pun berlalu....

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KLISE SANGAT.

And we've decided stay rumah Vannie memandangkan rumahnya yang gedabak besar itu tidak berpenghuni. =p Walaupun kesana untuk selesaikan apa yang patut, tapi tujuan asal kedua semacam tiada penghujungnya iaitu, berbincang untuk plan Hari Raya nanti. Ada yang pegi sana, ada yang pegi sini. Ahhh malaslah cerita.

Dan sebenarnya aku malas menaip.

Selesai perbincangan dan semuanya, macam biasalah kan. 

Family potrait time.

Dan untuk yang tiada dalam family potrait ni, yang nda dapat hadir tu, you'll always in our heart.

Ececececehhhhh 

Terima kasih untuk persahabatan selama 10 tahun ini atau mengkin lebih lagi, they're the best friend evahhhh. Had always been there in difficult times, precious and enjoyable time. Friends that is more than a friend as I can say like sisters to me. Aku sentiasa anggap diri aku bongsu antara dorang semua. Ihiks :3 

Although we're barely spending time together, but we will always understand each other. Kan kansss? =B

Alhamdulillah all praises to Allah because with Allah will we've meet like this. Thank you Allah. *wipe tears*

InsyaAllah ada masa, ada jodoh, ada umur panjang dengan izinNya kita akan jumpa lagi dan berkumpul lagi mungkin lebih ramai lagi. Walaupun ada la juga yang memang berkesempatan jumpa tiap tiap minggu kan sebab rumah dekat aaaangat, tapi ndapa, ayat mesti gempaks. Teheee. Dan sepatutnya banyak benda lagi yang perlu diceritakan dan diluahkan tapi we'll just keep it in our precious heart and let it be the priceless memories evahh. Padahal malas menaip. Dan dikesempatan ini saya ingin mengucapkan Selamat Hari Raya, maaf zahir dan batin. Ampun maaf dipinta untuk semua silap dan salah. So long. Jaga diri semuanyaaaa. ✌

Dan oh ya, 

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Nanti kita tutorial tudung lagi. Kihkih :3

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Appreciate before it's gone.

Assalamualaikum w.b.t

Well hello there world =)

There's something I want to share with you.

(If there's any reader la =p)

APPRECIATE.

p/s : Sorry English berterabur. I just want to improve, so I'm using English (even Rojak) in this entry ;)

Okay, Bismillahirrahmanirrahim. =)
Unfortunately, people will always appreciate when people or the things that they have already gone. I've maybe didn't through a lot about this kind of things. But a few incident teach me to appreciate all the people around me. They come and leave us whether in bad or good condition, will teach us how we learn lesson in life. Right?

For me, I've been close to my grandfather and grandmother from Ibu side. Just because Ibu the only person I ever had. Okay skip that. :) So, when I was a kid, I've always go to arwah Atok and arwah Nenek house. They treat me with lots of love. Lotsssss. It is difficult to tell. Maybe because I'm the only 'anak tunggal' granddaughter they ever had. Cececehhh =p

Arwah Atok passed away when I was 5, while he's asleep, wait and ready for Friday prayers. Yes, it just a moment to see arwah Atok face, hug me and teach me everything. After that, Nenek live with my youngest aunty. Arwah Nenek have been through a lot by herself. Seems like me, myself 'manja' with arwah Nenek. Hehehe =p Arwah Nenek was really really, a very very kind-hearted women, arwah Atok is a bit strict but he's also a very very kind person to everybody even his friends ever since I lived with them (sebab anak2 arwah Nenek selalu bergilir2 ambil Nenek, jaga Nenek including us.) she never raise her voice when she's angry, giving advice in such a soft reminder. But the truth is I never saw and all my family (Ibu, aunty or uncle) tell me that arwah Nenek angry or even using her hand to give lesson to her 20 son and daughter. Never.

Even after arwah Nenek passed away Alhamdulillah in such a good way, good day, good month. When arwah Nenek passed away, she didn't have any disease or illness. There's been never any trouble for us. Everything goes smoothly even though it is the 1st of Syawal in 2009. Before Eid prayers around 6 a.m. But the most regret for me, I didn't get a chance to be by her side until the last of arwah Nenek in this world. Before that, in Ramadhan I've been busy with my STPM and also helping my family every day at that time. Maybe it's fate that Allah want me to learn a lesson, appreciate people around me before they gone. I miss arwah Atok & Nenek. =')

And there's a person, a friend of mine. Which I consider as adik. =)
I've been close to him since I was 11 years old and he was 10 years old. When I was on primary school, he was a friend of my friend. My friend (satu bas sekolah dengan aku) introduced me to him. At that time, using 'adik angkat' 'kakak angkat' or any 'angkat2' was spreading around school. Asal ada adik kakak sikit terus jadi adik beradik angkat. Duhhh. Kahkah -,-'

While in secondary school, we also entered the same school but not as closely as we're in primary school. There's so many things that makes us not close anymore. But one day his classmate tell me that he's sick and always go to our 'Bilik Sakit' in school. Even there have rumors that he's not really sick, but pretend to be. Since then, I always come to that 'Bilik Sakit' to see him when our recess time. 

Because of the rumors that he's pretend to be sick, he even been bullied. Kesian kan =(

But there's a day when I feel so uneasy to him because I feel like he always disturbing me after that, always come to my class even during lesson just want to ask small things to me. So I avoid him. If he come to my class, I even run to the other class so he won't find me. (Jahatkan -,-') But still I felt guilty. After so much avoiding, so I came to his class and pretend like nothing happened and lucky he never ask about the avoidance. Or maybe he keep that in heart. =(

But I didn't know that would be the last time that I meet him. He even ask me to save his family picture, photostat of his I/C and his Snoopy notebook. (But I lost all that when my house burned-out) He said that his father want to send him to Queen Elizabeth Hospital at Kota Kinabalu to check about his migraine and he said for sure he will come back to school. =') I even ask him to see me first when he came back to school and hostel but the sad news we had after that he's in coma. It's because of the operation from the tumor in his brain. I even call her mom for the first time ask if he's okay. Her mom said that he conscious for awhile but after that he passed away on 20th of September 2006 and our teacher announce in our school. It is the first time in my whole life that my friend passed away. One thing that I regret that I feel like I don't really appreciate him as a friend and as 'adik' at that time. I even ran away and avoid him just because I feel ashamed that my friend teasing about he became my 'adik'. I shouldn't do that.

But all of it made me realize that I should appreciate all people around me while being with them even in a short while. Because sometimes Allah want to test you with the presence of people around you.If we didn't think well and take it negatively we will never know hikmah in every little things that happen in our life. To be regret then it's too late. So appreciate our love one before they gone. 

Now I try harder to appreciate all the people around me, but sometimes even me not able to withstand when people didn't appreciate us. But, don't be afraid of what people think about what the kind things that you're done, because the only important thing is Allah. What Allah will see of us. =)

All the story that I shared not that I want to show off or whatever, but I hope people will take as a lesson to appreciate every people that come into our lives, every little things that happen to us. We should thank Allah for everything. 

The very important part is appreciate our parents,

as we growing up, they grow older.

Didn't you realize that?

=')

Al-Fatihah untuk arwah Atok ; Palal bin Senin.

Al-Fatihah untuk arwah Nenek ; Jainab binti Uyong

Al-Fatihah untuk arwah Kama' ; Mohd Kamaruddin bin Nordin 

Semoga Allah tempatkan mereka di tempat yang Allah janjikan nikmat untuk hambaNya.

Amin =')

Ini adik arwah Kamaruddin. Capture masa dorang Tahun 1, 2008.
Dia sebaya & satu sekolah masa tu dengan anak buah aku,
Baby. Even nda pasti masa tu budak ni adik arwah tu atau nda,
lastly dapat tanya dia & dia cakap nama dia Norhamdin.
Sbb pernah tahu arwah ada adik nama Norhamdin cuma nda pernah jumpa.
Investigate rupanya mmg adik arwah ni bila pernah nampak
bapa arwah tu hantar adik dia ke sekolah.
Kecil & comel sama macam arwah abangnya. =')

Do you realize I change my font? =p

Selamat Ulang Tahun Kelahiran ; 29 Disember 2012

Selamat Hari Ulang Tahun kelahiran sahabat,

Kamsianah Tajuddin :3

We all love yah. <3

Birthday Girl di tengah :)

Dengan ucapan dan doa,

Semoga Allah berkati kehidupan dunia & akhirat.

Semoga kita bertekad cemerlang dengan jayanya. Eheks

Semoga menjadi anak yang solehah untuk kedua Ibu Bapa dan bakal suami.

Semoga jadi sahabat yang baik untuk semua sahabat.

Semoga jadi Ibu yang baik, isteri yang baik kelak. Uiseh awal Haha.

Semoga, semoga semoga. 

Dan semoga selalu buatkan bubur berobok & bergedel untuk aku.

Hew hew :3

Saya sayang anda Lillahi Taala, dunia & akhirat. 

Muahh :* <3

Have a blast on your Birthday !

Walaupun kemarin. Ihiks :3

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Roomate, you made me scared !

15 Disember 2012 | Sabtu | 20:09


Lepas ja balik dari pantai, (tengok entry sebelum ni)
dengan wajah lapar aku dengan Syira pun pegi kafe.
Kesian. Ihik. :D
Tunggu food yang kami order,
Tiba-tiba, roomate tersayang Dayah kol,

"Manda, mana kau? Kau ada pinjam laptopku ka?
Kau tau ka laptop ku hilang, laptop kita hilang Manda."

*sila bayangkan dia bercakap dgn nada menangis teresak-esak*

"Betul ba Dayah? Tiada orang ka di rumah? Aku letak kunci dalam ***** tadi."

Aku pun jadi panik. Sangat panik.
Sebab pagi tu baru ja ada kecurian di kawasan blok kami.
Macam macam bermain difikiran masa tu.

"Tiada Manda, aku tadi kan di rumah c Lina satu hari ni. Tu la aku fikir kau pinjam laptop ku.
Macam mana ni Manda?" *sambil nada menangis lagi*

"Okey Dayah, aku naik sekarang."

Aku bagitau Syira, Syira pun terkejut. Ya lah kan, bertambah kuat lagi kerisauan sebab pagi tu ada kes
kecurian. Aku mula fikir banyak sangat benda dalam laptop aku kalau hilang tu.
Aku terfikir, mesti c Dayah menangis nangis sudah masa tu.

Dengan kelajuan yang ada, perut sarat baru habis makan Mee Goreng Ayam,
Ihiks ! aku dengan Syira pun laju naik kerumah.
Datang rumah, tengok Dayah tiada. Pintu kunci, tiada orang dalam bilik.
Tanya housemate, housemate cakap Dayah sudah pegi sebelah nangis nangis.
Dalam hati, 'Ya Allah kesiannya Dayah.'
Aku rasa bersalah sebab aku yang simpan kunci dalam ***** tu.

Aku suruh Syira tunggu dalam rumah, aku pegi rumah sebelah.
Mungkin dia pegi rumah Lina. Tapi kenapa gelap? Kenapa berkunci pintu depan?
Pegi rumah depan dorang lagi. Tanya kalau ada Dayah, dorang cakap tiada.
Aku betul betul panik ni. (Macam wayang pula. Hahaha)
Aku fikir Dayah mesti turun bawah buat report dengan Jakmas ni. :'(

Bila keluar rumah kawan, tiba tiba rumah dorang Lina yang berkunci tadi terbuka.
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"HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU, HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU."
Aku punya main kuat teriak terus lari balik pegi rumah yang satu lagi.
Lagu Happy Birthday dorang pun ter'pause'.
Hahahahahahahhahahahahahahhahahhahahahha.


AMANDA, YOU'RE BEING PRANK ! T^T

Fine, fine. Hahahahhah
Aku punya main risau terlibat sekali Syira risau, rupanya dorang bagi kena aku.
Yalah, befday aku 12 hari tu. Dorang buat masa 15 semalam mana la aku expect apa-apa kan.
Hehee :3

Terima kasih semua,
Terima kasih yang bertungkus lumus masak, belikan kek,
buat suprised semua. Walaupun semua agak BZ minggu ni.
Aku memahaminya. :D Walaupun, agak sedih. Eheheks
Thank you Dayah, Kams, Sheila, Zyra, Lina, Nad & my Syira (yg turut kena prank) :p

Muka excited dapat kek !

Juadah yang dimasak dan Oreo Cheese Cake yang dibeli. Nyummehhh
*lap liur*

Terharu, marah, sedih, terkejut, takut semua ada.

Terima kasih la untuk semua pelakon termasuklah housemate yang bersatu hati dengan Dayah,

bagitau aku yang Dayah menangis ke rumah sebelah. Hahahaha

Sangat tidak menyangka ini semua akan berlaku. :p

Dan Alhamdulillah, sangat kenyang !

Kams, as the main character untuk baca doa.

"Semoga persahabatan kita kekal untuk selama-lamanya." (Kams, 2012)

IBU, MAK, BAPA, ABG, KAKAK SAYA TERTIPU !

(tapi saya dapat kek. Ehem :p)

Alhamdulillah, Allah hadirkan pelangi lagi. :)

Sayang anda semua Lillahi Taala. <3 :')

*wipe tears*

Aiskrim. Pantai. Pelangi Senja.

"Apa-apa yang membuatmu gembira, jangan lepaskan. Apa-apa yang membuatmu bersedih, tinggalkan."
- Anonymous

15 Disember 2012 : Sabtu : 1710

Memandangkan Farah meninggalkan kami terdampar di pulau,

dan dia sedang berseronok di tanah kelahirannya,

maka kami berdua pun mencuba untuk menggembirakan diri,

menghiburkan diri dan menghilangkan kesedihan untuk ke pantai.

Camwhore horror. Hahaks :3

Masa gambar Syira ni aku cakap,
"Harap2 aiskrim tu jatuh atas kepala kau Syira."
Hahahahah :D

Dan beruntungnya,

masa sampai pantai tu, kebetulan ada pelangi.

Subhanallah cantik woooo :')

And we're jakun like, "Cantiknyaaaaa huwoooo." Hehehe

Allah hadiahkan pelangi untuk kami hari tu. Alhamdulillah.

Eheks :)

Selepas pelangi mesti ada hujan kan,

dan kami pun bergegas pulang. Ecewahhh.

Bergegas apanya. Bergambar pun sempat. Pfftt

Hahahaha :3

Walaupun hujan sudah menitis ke bumi. Dan ke tudung. Ahaks :p

Terima kasih Allah,

untuk hari hari sebelumnya, hari hari sekarang & hari hari yang mendatang.

:')

12.12.12

"Showed me right from wrong, taught me to be strong, need u more than ever." 

- Sami Yusuf

It's my born-day yaww !

:)
Tapi tanpa Ibu, Family & Best friends. *Wipe tears*

Dan tanpa apa apa celebration.

Sebab semua Bz kan. Aku pun petang tu ada presentation.

Dan yang pastinya, walaupun tarikah tersangatlah cantik,

tapi semua nda macam dulu sudah. 

Sangat. Ibu dan dia bukan antara orang yang terawal.

Sedih juga lah. Tapi apa boleh buat kan.

Perasaan manusia tu, bertukar ganti. Sentiasa berubah.

I'm not talking about Ibu, I'm talking about him :')

Ibu, tertidur. Kesian kan, penat. :')

My sisters, Jia, Kakak dey, Pqa, Sara, Bern. Semua antara org yg terawal juga.

Wana, Koo2 aku tunggu tiada. Sedih jugalah.

Mungkin dorang bz kan. It's Ok. :'D

Okey, hari saya dimulakan dengan presentation yg saya rasa sangat mencabar.

Ihiks. Present saya tidak gentar. Amboi sombong. Haha

Tapi yg paling menggetarkan jiwa, kalau soalan killer yg kawan2 coursemate tnya.

Hehe. Aku bknnya pro jawab soalan.

Tapi, bernasib baik juga kami ni grouping presentation.

Para presenter mengambil tempat. Ecehh

Sesi Wan, our group leader memperkenalkan kami.

Nampak belakang tu? Tu lah tajuk presentation kami bersamaan tajuk assignment kami juga. :)
p/s : Abaikan muka kencang saya. 

Sesi ketua menyampaikan part dia. Syira kenapa buat muka mcm tu? Ihiks :3
p/s : Tudung putih di kanan tu la Dr. Chong, our Islamic Asset Management lecturer :)

Ni group yg evaluate kami masa tu, selain lecturer evaluate, kawan2 pun evaluate jg
mcm mana cara kami present, slide organize ka tidak blablabla. 

And lastly, sesi Q & A.

Alhamdulillah, our presentation goes well.

Soalan pun dapat dijawab dengan baik. Alhamdulillah Allah :)

Bangga juga lah sebab bila Dr. bagi balik Assignment,

markah pun memuaskan. Sangat memuaskan. 

FYI, Dr. Chong ni bukan jenis yang senang bagi markah tahu.

Dapat B- tu kira bertuah la sebab ada budak junior cakap dia bagi assignment utk

kelas lain paling tinggi pun C-, C+. 

Sangat susah kan capai tahap B.

Alhamdulillah ^___^

Lepas tu, Dr. Chong cakap, siapa yg datang kelas dia hari tu, dia bagi bonus mark.

Lagi la tambah tambah happy. :D

And yeah, we're done for our first presentation for that day ! :)

Saya anggap markah assignment yang memuaskan & bonus mark tu,

hadiah hari lahir dari Dr. Chong. Ihiks ! :3

Lepas tu, hari lahir saya, tarikh yang sangat cantik itu,

berakhir macam tu sahaja. :)

Walaupun, aku rasa sangat sangat bersyukur sebab Allah masih berikan peluang

untuk bernafas di bumi ni.

Sempat lagi mencapai umur 22 tahun, yang semakin dekat dengan ajal.

 It's not about party, present, birthday,

it's all about growing up, and be for who you are.

Walaupun sebenarnya sangat sedih sebab nda dapat celebrate sama sama dengan Ibu.

Tapi Ibu cakap, akan ditunda bila aku pulang ke Sandakan nanti. :')

I can't wait !

Goodbye my lovely 12.12.12.

I will remember this.

Terima kasih untuk semua yg wish, yang nyanyikan lagu, yg ingat, kol aku, even yg nda ingat pun,

Terima kasih. :)

Terima kasih Ya Allah, FOR EVERYDAY, FOR EVERYTHING <3

Career Plan.

The motto for this seminar :
"How I do anything is how I do everything. I am a REAL LEADER."
"I can upgrade myself."

09 Disember 2012, 0830 - 1700.

Memang agak bernanah juga kan sebab seminar ni berlangsung seharian.

Yang sebenar benarnya berlangsung selama dua hari. DUA HARI.

Sabtu & Ahad.

Tapi aku? Datang hari kedua. Ihiks.

Lepas ikut seminar ni,

baru aku terfikir yang selama ni rupanya aku langsung tiada

perancangan masa depan yang lebih baik.

Apa yang ada dalam fikiran aku,

sentiasa fikir : "Just go with the flow."

Tapi sampai bila? Nda kan sampai bila aku just go with the flow.

Mesti ada perancangan yang rapi juga kan untuk diri sendiri.

What I want to be after graduate?

Have a career? What career?

Going for further studies? But where? Am I still affordable?

Getting married? Tapi siapa calon? Ahaks :3

And now, I'm still in this room,

terpinga-pinga apa yang aku mahukan sebenarnya.

So sad of me.

Honestly, dari kecil aku hanya mampu berfikir,

"Aku mau kerja, beli rumah & bawa Ibu pergi Umrah, Haji."

Tapi, impian langsung tiada spesifikasi.

So now ! Dari sekarang masih belum terlambat kan?

Untuk aku rancang sebaik-baiknya.

*take my notebook and pen, start writing*

"Kita hanya merancang, dan Allah juga sebaik-baik perancang & menentukan."

*If I'm mistaken, please remind me*

Terima kasih Allah, sedarkan aku.

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End with that. I will just keep in myself what are really my plan for future.

*blushing* :3

PHOTO SESSION !

Otw pergi ke seminar sangat diharuskan untuk bergambar. Ihiks.

Sesi berpelukan dengan mereka yang tersayang.

Ni penceramah yang suruh okey. :3

Tapi kami hari hari pun sayang menyayang okeyy. Okeyyy. <3

Dan semasa beratur untuk mengambil sijil. Weheee :3

So,

"If you don't know where are you going, you'll end up someplace else." - Yogi Berra

Plan wisely, for your future. 

Insya Allah :)

Happiness?

"But how many times will it take for me, to get it right?" - Glee


Have you ever feel like there are so many things that you want to tell,
your heart feel the ache. But yet, you don't know how to describe
your feelings. You try to hold on. You take your time alone for so long.
So long. You laugh, but in your heart you know you cry.
You smile, but deep in your heart it breaks.
There's nothing wrong with everybody around you. They still, kind to you.
But you just don't know why you're being such a jerk to yourself.
I...just don't know.
It feels like, something missing. Something.
You have so many friends, but you feel like you don't have one.
I think that is the point. It's like now, I'm really feel that I'm losing my best friends.
You try not to care, but yet it is hurt. Ache. Sick.
Heartache. Feel like my heart is always want to explode if I think about it.
Again and again.
And I know, it all happens because of me.
Because of me, to EVERYONE.
Maybe, it's just not about best friend.
Maybe, it's about something. Something that Allah want to show me.
That in these days I've forgot. When I forgot about Him.


"Allah, please give me strength. Strength to face all of this."
"Allah, give me guidance to your path."

Amin. Amin. Ya Rabbal Alamin.

I don't want my beloved December being like this.
I don't want.
:')

"My best intentions is make a mess of it, just want to fix it somehow."

Missing. Back to basic.

sila klik gambar ini untuk resolusi yg lebih baik. cewah !

Back to basic : Merindui family & Sandakan tercinta.

Dan juga akan merindui budak nakal & garang di atas.
Haha ;D

Macam macam gaya nya kan.

Dan yg lebih membuat saya bertambah rindu dan terharu adalah ini :')

Hasil tulisan anak buah aku Nursyuhada Mohd Zambrizal a.k.a Baby

 yang baru berumur 11 Tahun.

Dan capture gambar ni guna kamera aku. Waktu aku bg tinggal

kamera di rumah. 

Soooo Suwettt like a candy ! Acececeh ;'D

Paling mahal,

"Greatest Aunty Ever!!!"

Kbai ! :3

Happy Birthday Sayang Saya !

Selamat Hari Lahir sayang makcik,

Mohd. Haykal Hady :)

Walaupun sudah 3 hari berlalu. :(

sobb sobb.

Saya makcik yang pelupa.

Bukan lupa, tapi mmg balik balik fikir siapa yang birthday

masa 1 Oktober tu.

Lepas Ibu msg kemarin bru ingat yg birthday Haykal.

Dia siap bagitau lagi dgn Ibu,

"Nek, 1hb tu harijadi Ekal. Ekal dpt kek dgn hamper makanan."

Ibu baru MMS tadi gambarnya birthday.
Agak kabur sbb Baby yg gmbar. HAHA

tskkkk T_T

Kalau aku ada dekat Sandakan masa tu,

memang konfom bawa dia jalan.

Bila dekat ni la kawan aku hari hari gaduh.

Sebab dia GARANG sangat.

Terlalu garang.

Jadi, sebab tu la suka usik dia. Hehe

Bila jauh, RINDU nda berhenti.

Even aku ada 6 orang anak buah,

tapi dia yg slalu gaduh ngan aku.

HAHA

SELAMAT HARI LAHIR HAYKAL.

Makcik sayang Haykal & semua 

dunia akhirat. :')

Belajar rajin rajin (mcm ja dia baca) :p

hihihi.

Kbai !

Them :)

Life is too SHORT to wake up in the morning with REGRETS,

so LOVE the people who treat you right, 

FORGET about the one who don't and

BELIEVE everything happens for a REASON.

In life, you don't get the people you WANT.

You get the people you NEED. 

To TEACH you, to LOVE you, to make you LAUGH.

To make you exactly the PERSON you SHOULD BE.

until then. bai ! :D

Random #3

"There's a point in every true FRIENDSHIP,

where friends stop being friends & became SISTERS."

my silly sisters !

Happy Tuesday ! ;)

xoxo 

Random #2

"Life is painful and messed up. But that's why we have 

to keep trying, we must push through all that hurts us.

Sometimes the things that hurt us are the things that make us stronger.
Even if it hurts, 

never stop yourself from living." - Gossip Girl

HAHA always make me laugh <3

xoxo

Wipe your tears.

When the rain is blowing in your face

And the whole world is on your case

I could offer you a warm embrace

To make you feel my love

When the evening shadows and the evening appears

And there is no one there to dry your tears

I could hold you for a million years

To make you feel my love

I know you haven't make your mind up yet

But I would never do you wrong

I've known it from the moment that we met

No doubt in my mind where you belong

I'd go hungry ; I'd go black and blue

I'd go crawling down the avenue

No, there's nothing that I wouldn't do

To make you feel my love

The storms are raging on the rolling sea

And on the highway of regret

Though winds of change are blowing wild and free

You ain't see nothing like me yet

I could make you happy, make your dreams come true

Nothing that I wouldn't do

Go to the ends of Earth for you

To make you feel my love

To make you feel my love..

-Adele-

wish. you.

My wish - Rascall Flatts

I hope that days come easy and moments pass slow

And each road leads you where you want to go

And if you,re faced with a choice

And you have to choose

I hope you choose the one that means the most to you

And if one door opens to another door closed

I hope you keep on walking till you find the window

If it's cold outside

Show the warmth of your smile

More than anything, more than anything

My wish for you

Is that this life becomes all that you want it

To your dreams stay big, 

and your worries stay small

You never need to carry more than you can hold

And while you're out there

Getting where you're getting to

I hope you know somebody loves you

And wants the same things, too

Yeah, this is my wish

I hope you never look back, but you never forget

All the ones who love you, in the place you left

I hope you always forgive, and you never regret

Oh, you find God's grace, in every mistake

And you always give more than you take

Oh, more than anything, more than anything

My wish for you

Is that this life becomes all that you want it

To your dreams stay big

and your worries stay small

You never need to carry more than you can hold

And while you're out there

Getting where you're getting to

I hope you know somebody loves you

And wants the same things, too

Yeah, this is my wish..

I'm sorry.

"I hope you know somebody loves you." :')

midnight day :)

heyy, celcom dapat free kol 2 jam hanya dengan RM 1 tahu ! ;)
first, aku testing testing. dan dia jadi testimoni aku.

tapi dia pun tersangatlah bz, 

sekejap ja dapat kol dengan dia.

:(

and then dia pun msg lah,

"jam11 nanti kol."

okeylah, tunggu tunggu punya tunggu sampai jam1,

dia masih on the way lagi,

aku pun msg, "free ni habis jam1." :(

dia pun reply, "cukup speed sudah aku drive ni."

^___^ hee.

kesian juga lah kan.

dah la kerja d sana jalan jauh malam malam. :(

jadi aku pun cakap suruh dia perlahan-lahan bawa kereta.

nanti ada apa aku lagi yang rasa bersalah.

bila dia dah sampai rumah dia bagitau,

aku kol la.

tak sampai 5 minit saja kami cakap,

terus dia mau tidur.

kesian juga kan, aku rasa macam jadi beban saja dengan dia 

bila aku cakap aku mau kol dengan dia.

bila aku letak telefon,

dia msg pula, "kol lah. alang alang sdh free kan."

yippeee ! ;)
kasar kasarnya pun, seriously ada juga kelembutan si kasar,

si menyakitkan hati ni.

heee. :D

terima kasih CELCOM kerana berjaya menghubungkan kami

lagi yang sudah lama unreachable for each other.

masing masing pun bz kan. :)

hihi. tapi, cerita cerita tadi. memang lucu.

you, jangan trep comel. tak sesuai lah ! ;p

balik Sandakan lah cepat ya. ;) i'm waiting ~

motif entry?

-,- ntah !

hanya ingin bagitahu kau bergayut lah.

kbai !

dia.

aku rasa lebih baik begini. :)

no more contact, no more fighting.

and, no more hurting.

aku lebih selesa begini.

dan aku bahagia begini.

jangan cari masalah dengan aku lagi.

kerana aku juga manusia biasa yang tidak ingin disakiti.

oleh kamu lagi. :')

my heart, my soul, myself

is now empty for anyone.

aku hanya ingin mencari redha Illahi. 

amin ~

final exam : 14 days more. T_T

cinta, realiti dan selebriti.

sempena hari hari HARI IBU kan.

aku dah prepare ni suprise untuk IBU & MAMA.

aku bercadang buat ni dan pos ke Sandakan.

shhh ! tahu diam diam kay. :)

first terfikir lah juga mahu bagi apa kan.

bila dilanda inflasi ni,

tak cukup bahan. jadi,

aku memang dah lama juga tak buat kad.

i mean,

dengan hasil kreativiti aku sendiri. ;3

hihihihi.

sebab aku pernah terbaca diary ibu (time kecik kecik hingusan nahanam dulu)

JANGAN TIRU AKSI TERSEBUT. DOSA.

hahaha.

Ibu sangat suka bila aku bagi ibu kad.

dan mama pula, tak kisah. asal aku ingat.

mungkin sebab tungkus lumus & tanda aku ingat dorang boleh nampak kan.

:)

jadi tuuuuuu,

gambar atas tu.

tu lah kad yang aku buat.

tapi oleh sebab besar bapak punya aku buat.

aku pun,

bukan rajin sangat mengarang ayat.

jadi aku buatlah ruang,

untuk artis artis yang baru-aku-ingat-dorang-datang-sini ni SIGN lah kan.

;)

al-maklum,

orang jarang jumpa artis.

walaupun mereka ni manusia biasa juga.

hihi.

tapi, ada jugalah kenangan kenangan.

jarang jumpa kan dengan dorang.

jadi Ibu & Mama,

beserta kad itu aku selitkan SIGNATURE dari,

.

.

.

Dato' Fazley

Imran Ajmain

Farish Aziz

& 

Dua orang artis Singapore (kawan Imran Ajmain)

sorry lupa nama. ;p

okeylah,

nantilah bila rajin update pasal motivasi hari tu.

dan gambar gambar. :D

aku mengantuk, penat.

jam 2 lebih aku baru sampai rumah ambil air dekat kampus tadi.

kesian Labuan kan, ketiadaan air.

nak berak pun tak boleh.

tengok gambar bawah ni sajalah dulu.

Kbai ! ;)

# oh yaa, ada seseorang menarik perhatian tadi. 4 sem baru perasan. :p

dan dan dan, terima kasih untuk seseorang juga yang belikan tiket ni.

walaupun dia tak dapat ikut. :(

belikan orang tapi dia ada aktiviti sendiri. huuu