Showing posts with label thank you Allah. Show all posts
Showing posts with label thank you Allah. Show all posts

Friday, July 18, 2014

Reflection Ramadhan 1435H


Bismillahirrahmanirrahim..
Fuhhh besawang gila blog. Last entry rata-rata semua jiwang. Maluu T_T
Tapi tiada rasa juga mau delete sebab apa yang dikongsikan dalam blog ni bagi aku semuanya berharga. :)


Walaupun lah agak lama blog ni sepi, tapi masih belum terlambat untuk mengucapkan salam Ramadhan 1435H. Hari ni 19 Julai 2014 genap 21 hari berada dalam bulan Ramadhan. Agak sedih untuk meninggalkan Ramadhan sebenarnya. Yala kan, Ramadhan bulan yang mempunyai banyak ganjaran ni datang hanya setahun sekali. Sedangkan kita pun tiada jaminan untuk hidup esok hari, apatah lagi untuk hidup sehingga Ramadhan seterusnya. Jadi, sementara kita masih diberi peluang untuk menikmati Ramadhan yang berbaki 9 hari ni, kejarlah pahala, banyakkan beribadah kepadaNya, kurangkan benda tidak berfaedah, kejarlah Lailatul Qadar. Doa & usaha untuk perbaiki diri k. *pesanan untuk diri sendiri*




Lately, i've been thinking about death. Death = Kematian. Yang pasti akan kita alami satu hari nanti. Bagaimana agaknya diri kita menghadapi kematian? Bagaimana diriku menghadapi kematian? Adakah sudah bersedia ataupun masih terumbang ambing mencari hidayah Allah. Allah... Kadang bila baca apa yang Allah firmankan dalam Al-Quran, terbayang-bayang betapa dahsyatnya azab Allah bagi mereka yang ingkar. Nauzubillahminzalik. Azab kubur, azab di alam akhirat, Allah.. :(


Beruntung, cemburu bila lihat mereka yang mendapat hidayah. Diri ini, entah Allah terima atau tidak amal ibadah selama ni. Khusyuk pun belum tentu, riak terkadang rasa diri ini, adakah ibadah hanya untuk Dia Yang Satu ataupun untuk menunjuk-menunjuk. Rindu bila Allah lama tidak menimpakan ujian, sebab ujian itu adalah satu tarbiyah dari Allah untuk kita berfikir tentang kebesaran Allah pada hidup kita selama ini. Ujianlah yang membuatkan kita kuat untuk menghadapi segala dugaan dan cabaran. Ujian Allah latih kita untuk jadi orang yang sabar, redha & syukur atas segala nikmat selama ni.


Semoga bila kita pergi tinggalkan dunia, kita akan sempat untuk mengucap dua kalimah syahadah, dalam keadaan sempat untuk menunaikan ibadah & bukan dalam keadaan lalai dengan dunia. Amin. Minta dijauhkan kita pergi tinggalkan dunia dalam keadaan kufur, lalai, maksiat dan lupa pada Allah. Nauzubillahminzalik. :( Dan berharaplah sebelum kita pergi tinggalkan dunia, kita sempat untuk berbakti kepada kedua ibu bapa kita. Amin Ya Rab.


"Aku ingin aku pergi bukan untuk ditangisi, tapi untuk didoakan dan pemergianku jadi manfaat untuk semua manusia. Amin Ya Rab."

Mysara pernah cakap dengan aku, jodoh dan ajal maut itu memang rahsia Allah, tapi jodoh insyaAllah boleh diubah kalau kita berusaha mengubah diri lebih baik kalau mau dapat jodoh yang baik. Tapi ajal maut tidak boleh diubah. Bila Allah kata mungkin kita mati lepas ni, tidak kira dalam keadaan apa sekalipun. (Semoga perginya kita dalam keadaan yang baik, amin.) Sungguh kita langsung tiada jaminan masa bila kita akan mati. Entah seminit lagi, sejam lagi, sehari lagi, sebulan lagi. Tiada yang mengetahui melainkan Dia Yang Maha Mengetahui segala-segalanya. Mungkin sebab itulah jika kita ingin mencari jodoh, persiapkan diri untuk memperbaiki diri jadi yang lebih baik dari sebelumnya. Kalau kita baik di mata Allah, Allah akan datangkan orang yang baik di mata Allah untuk kita. Kerana sesungguhnya kita tidak tahu sama ada jodoh yang datang dulu atau kematian yang datang menjemput kita dulu. Wallahualam.



Semoga, Allah makbulkan doa-doa kita, menerima ibadah-ibadah kita selama ini dan dipermudahkan segala urusan kebaikan kita di dunia & di akhirat dan sempat untuk bertemu Ramadhan seterusnya. Kalau boleh, biar kita semua berkumpul didalam syurga Allah itu. Amin Ya Rabbal Alamin. :')


Ingatan buat diri dan kita semua.
Alhamdulillah masih berkesempatan beribadah pada Allah.
Selamat menjalani ibadah puasa!
:)

Thursday, April 18, 2013

Unspoken feelings.


Labuan! Look who's hereeeeeeee :')
There's no other words that I can express and said right now. Sekian lama aku bersabar sebab jauh dari dia, memang bagi aku terlalu lama. Paling lama dekat dengan dia pun masa sekolah menengah. Lepas sekolah menengah, kami bawa haluan masing-masing. He have he's own commitment and so do me. Walaupun masa dia study d KUIS dulu pun, dia balik cuti mana da jumpa aku. Ada pun banyak kali plan nda jadi. And then, dia di Sandakan ajar di sekolah agama Baby, anak buah aku. Tapi selama dia mengajar sana, baru sekali lah aku jumpa dia. Memang agak lama. Bagi aku memang lama bersabar, tapi akhirnya Alhamdulillah bagi hikmah sebegini. I don't want to lose him. Dia lah satu-satunya adik aku lepas arwah Kama'. Adik lelaki yang sangat sangat aku sayang. Even orang lain cakap apa pun, bagi aku dia ja lah adik lelaki yang aku ada sekarang. Walau hakikatnya ramai sangatkan adik yang nda berapa sah. Walaupun dia bukan adik kandung, but I treat him like one. Tapi dalam berapa tahun tu, aku sedar dia ada komitmem sendiri. Dia ada hidup sendiri, bukan juga menjauhkan diri cuma ndamau mengganggu kehidupan yang dia ada. In the first place, aku betul2 minta maaf kalau ada sesiapa yang sangat2 terganggu atau terkilan, terasa hati ka dengan kegembiraanku sebab keberadaan dia disini. Gembira aku, Allah sajalah yang tahu. I don't know how can I say it anymore. Kalau boleh, selama berbaki dua bulan aku berada di Labuan, I want to treat him good. Kalau ada baik untuk dia ditangga teratas, tangga tu jugalah yang ingin aku daki. Ibu, my bestfriends knows how happy I am. Yes! Extremely happy. Tapi dia pun ada komitmen untuk benda lain, utk orang lain. :) So, as your sister I don't want to make your life more miserable. I want you to be comfortable here. I'm sorry for everything. I'm not over attached. I'm just worried. :') Berdoa, semoga Allah sentiasa memudahkan urusan dunia & akhirat. Amin ya Rab. ♥

Tuesday, January 29, 2013

Appreciate before it's gone.


Assalamualaikum w.b.t
Well hello there world =)

There's something I want to share with you.
(If there's any reader la =p)

APPRECIATE.

p/s : Sorry English berterabur. I just want to improve, so I'm using English (even Rojak) in this entry ;)


Okay, Bismillahirrahmanirrahim. =)
Unfortunately, people will always appreciate when people or the things that they have already gone. I've maybe didn't through a lot about this kind of things. But a few incident teach me to appreciate all the people around me. They come and leave us whether in bad or good condition, will teach us how we learn lesson in life. Right?

For me, I've been close to my grandfather and grandmother from Ibu side. Just because Ibu the only person I ever had. Okay skip that. :) So, when I was a kid, I've always go to arwah Atok and arwah Nenek house. They treat me with lots of love. Lotsssss. It is difficult to tell. Maybe because I'm the only 'anak tunggal' granddaughter they ever had. Cececehhh =p

Arwah Atok passed away when I was 5, while he's asleep, wait and ready for Friday prayers. Yes, it just a moment to see arwah Atok face, hug me and teach me everything. After that, Nenek live with my youngest aunty. Arwah Nenek have been through a lot by herself. Seems like me, myself 'manja' with arwah Nenek. Hehehe =p Arwah Nenek was really really, a very very kind-hearted women, arwah Atok is a bit strict but he's also a very very kind person to everybody even his friends ever since I lived with them (sebab anak2 arwah Nenek selalu bergilir2 ambil Nenek, jaga Nenek including us.) she never raise her voice when she's angry, giving advice in such a soft reminder. But the truth is I never saw and all my family (Ibu, aunty or uncle) tell me that arwah Nenek angry or even using her hand to give lesson to her 20 son and daughter. Never.

Even after arwah Nenek passed away Alhamdulillah in such a good way, good day, good month. When arwah Nenek passed away, she didn't have any disease or illness. There's been never any trouble for us. Everything goes smoothly even though it is the 1st of Syawal in 2009. Before Eid prayers around 6 a.m. But the most regret for me, I didn't get a chance to be by her side until the last of arwah Nenek in this world. Before that, in Ramadhan I've been busy with my STPM and also helping my family every day at that time. Maybe it's fate that Allah want me to learn a lesson, appreciate people around me before they gone. I miss arwah Atok & Nenek. =')


And there's a person, a friend of mine. Which I consider as adik. =)
I've been close to him since I was 11 years old and he was 10 years old. When I was on primary school, he was a friend of my friend. My friend (satu bas sekolah dengan aku) introduced me to him. At that time, using 'adik angkat' 'kakak angkat' or any 'angkat2' was spreading around school. Asal ada adik kakak sikit terus jadi adik beradik angkat. Duhhh. Kahkah -,-'

While in secondary school, we also entered the same school but not as closely as we're in primary school. There's so many things that makes us not close anymore. But one day his classmate tell me that he's sick and always go to our 'Bilik Sakit' in school. Even there have rumors that he's not really sick, but pretend to be. Since then, I always come to that 'Bilik Sakit' to see him when our recess time. 

Because of the rumors that he's pretend to be sick, he even been bullied. Kesian kan =(
But there's a day when I feel so uneasy to him because I feel like he always disturbing me after that, always come to my class even during lesson just want to ask small things to me. So I avoid him. If he come to my class, I even run to the other class so he won't find me. (Jahatkan -,-') But still I felt guilty. After so much avoiding, so I came to his class and pretend like nothing happened and lucky he never ask about the avoidance. Or maybe he keep that in heart. =(

But I didn't know that would be the last time that I meet him. He even ask me to save his family picture, photostat of his I/C and his Snoopy notebook. (But I lost all that when my house burned-out) He said that his father want to send him to Queen Elizabeth Hospital at Kota Kinabalu to check about his migraine and he said for sure he will come back to school. =') I even ask him to see me first when he came back to school and hostel but the sad news we had after that he's in coma. It's because of the operation from the tumor in his brain. I even call her mom for the first time ask if he's okay. Her mom said that he conscious for awhile but after that he passed away on 20th of September 2006 and our teacher announce in our school. It is the first time in my whole life that my friend passed away. One thing that I regret that I feel like I don't really appreciate him as a friend and as 'adik' at that time. I even ran away and avoid him just because I feel ashamed that my friend teasing about he became my 'adik'. I shouldn't do that.


But all of it made me realize that I should appreciate all people around me while being with them even in a short while. Because sometimes Allah want to test you with the presence of people around you.If we didn't think well and take it negatively we will never know hikmah in every little things that happen in our life. To be regret then it's too late. So appreciate our love one before they gone. 

Now I try harder to appreciate all the people around me, but sometimes even me not able to withstand when people didn't appreciate us. But, don't be afraid of what people think about what the kind things that you're done, because the only important thing is Allah. What Allah will see of us. =)


All the story that I shared not that I want to show off or whatever, but I hope people will take as a lesson to appreciate every people that come into our lives, every little things that happen to us. We should thank Allah for everything. 


The very important part is appreciate our parents,
as we growing up, they grow older.
Didn't you realize that?
=')


Al-Fatihah untuk arwah Atok ; Palal bin Senin.
Al-Fatihah untuk arwah Nenek ; Jainab binti Uyong
Al-Fatihah untuk arwah Kama' ; Mohd Kamaruddin bin Nordin 

Semoga Allah tempatkan mereka di tempat yang Allah janjikan nikmat untuk hambaNya.
Amin =')

Ini adik arwah Kamaruddin. Capture masa dorang Tahun 1, 2008.
Dia sebaya & satu sekolah masa tu dengan anak buah aku,
Baby. Even nda pasti masa tu budak ni adik arwah tu atau nda,
lastly dapat tanya dia & dia cakap nama dia Norhamdin.
Sbb pernah tahu arwah ada adik nama Norhamdin cuma nda pernah jumpa.
Investigate rupanya mmg adik arwah ni bila pernah nampak
bapa arwah tu hantar adik dia ke sekolah.
Kecil & comel sama macam arwah abangnya. =')


Do you realize I change my font? =p


Thursday, January 24, 2013

kau teristimewa, Dia yang sempurna


Assalamualaikum w.b.t & watcha doing yaww? 
How's your holiday? How's your hometown?
And how's your everything?
Is everything okay?
If okay, Alhamdulillah. Praise to Allah =)

Anyway,
Salam Maulidur Rasul.
Perbanyakkan selawat dan salam ke atas junjungan tercinta kita. 
<3

Right now, this hour, this minute, this second,
I'm at my hometown.
Feel so fascinating ! 
Being with my beloved Family, beloved Best friends & Sisters.
And beloved hometowns. 
It's everything that I miss.

But one thing for sure,
the memories that I want to forget have been recall back since I've came here.
=')

Every single place in my hometown keep remain of the memories.
Yes, I said I want to forget him.
But eventually, I can't....
The truth is, I CAN'T !
I've try to, even me avoid all my friends, best friends.
And I didn't realized that I'd hurt them.
I'm sorry.

In my previous entry, I'd explained why I even avoid my friends, my best friends.
But it still didn't work. My friends keep telling me how he had been,
and I even saw his picture at one of my friends wedding !
And kept my heart at ache.
(For sure, if he read this he will become more annoying to me.)

More than that, I even saw all our old conversation in my old phone.
(which now, Ibu use that phone.)
I didn't erase all the message. All of his text reminder especially, I saved in the phone.

Am I too obsessed? 
Am I enough too care?
We didn't have anything special in the past.
It just me, that just made him one of the important person in my life.
I'm sorry, I'm really really sorry.
When I think about it, there's so many things I'd did wrong.
I'd always bother him with all my 'annoying' attitude.
I'm sorry.

I'm sorry, I felt very sorry.
Up until now we've always arguing, blaming each other.
I don't know what I must do to make things even better.
Even though I know things will not the same like the old time.

Hati saya sentiasa keras di awal,
tapi akhirnya lembut juga.

I'm sorry because I can't seem to forget everything.
Because you were too kind.
Even in your own way to show that kindness.
Sometimes annoying, sometimes arguing, even 'mentally psycho-ing' me.

I'm sorry again.
It was all my fault, jealousy ruin everything.
(even we don't have any special relationship, just being friends)
Yes, it's just me.
Even though I know we will never meant to be together.
Now, or maybe sometimes.
Maybe all the prays I keep for Allah have some mistakes.
And maybe my intention was a bit strayed away.

Now,
I just only can make Du'a,
for you have a happier life from now on and in the future.
Be with someone that will even more care of you,
and always makes you happy.
A life with someone that will still having Allah blessing till Jannah.
Amin =)

Not just I even to give up.
Even though I'd say before this, that I will wait for you.
It just I don't want you to feel offended or shame anymore with me.
I hope it's enough with just for me that you felt that way.
Not for anyone else.

Take care.
I know you will always obey to Allah will,
a really good son to your parents,
a really good brother to your siblings,
a really good uncle to your niece & nephew,
a really good friends to our friends,
a really good citizen to our country,
and lastly will be a really good husband to your future wife, SOMEDAY.
=)

Because, at that time..I'm starting to believe in you.



May Allah always bless you in whatever you do.
Amin.


"You will only find true happiness when you truly believe that everything happens
for a reason and Allah is the best of planner."


p/s : Minta maaf untuk bahasa yang bercampur baur. 

Friday, December 28, 2012

Goodbye 2012.



Amboihh.
Awal betul mengucapkan selamat tinggal kepada 2012.
More 3 days we're going to 2013.
Biarlah awal, goodbye in advance. Ihiks.

Sepanjang 2012,
aku pun mau juga tumpang sekaki menceritakan bagaimana 2012 aku kan kan :3
Tiada apa yang menarik, cuma yang paling menarik
sebab tarikh hari lahir aku untuk tahun ni cantik ; 12.12.12
Cantikkan? Ehem. 

Tapi tiada apa lah yang menariknya masa hari tu.
Masa birthday pun masih di Labuan dan Ibu jauh berada di Sandakan. :')

2012,
Banyak sangat benda yang mengajar aku untuk jadi lebih kuat,
lebih memahami erti hidup. (Ayat skema :p)
Tapi, seriously..
Banyak masalah dan benda yang jadi buat aku belajar, berfikir dan kalau boleh nda mau
mengulangi kesilapan yang sama dengan aku.
Walaupun benda tu jadi dengan orang lain.
Nauzubillahminzalik.

All of my past are getting happier w/o me,
I've learned that, even though you feel like you are the most pathetic person in the world,
you've got many problems, but one day Allah will make you realize
that another person having a bigger problem than you.
Bila kau ada masalah kau rasa kau lah orang yang paling sedih di dunia,
paling malang, paling kesian kan, tiada kawan yg mau membantu, 
tiada orang yang mau dengar masalah kau.
Tapi, kita langsung nda sedar yang ada lagi orang lebih memerlukan simpati dari kita.
Masalah orang lain lebih besar berbanding masalah kita. Sangat besar.
Tapi dia boleh boleh lagi tersenyum, ketawa, walaupun dalam hati menangis.
Yang kita? Masalah sekecil zarah pun kita rasakan telampau berat sampai makan pun nda selera.
FTW.

Ingat ni?

"Allah tidak akan menguji kita dengan ujian yang kita tidak mampu tangani."

Bila ada masalah, ada jalan penyelesaian.
Allah tahu kita mampu. Tu sebabnya Allah mahu menguji.
Semua ni banyak mengajar aku, 2012.
Bila aku tahu kawan aku ada masalah yg lebih besar dari aku, aku menangis.
Bukan menangiskan masalah aku, masalah dia.
Tapi aku menyesal sebab redha untuk Qada' & Qadar Allah ku di mana waktu itu?
:') Sedih bila ingat balik.


Semakin meningkat umur, walaupun mungkin aku semakin manja dengan Ibu, Mama, Bapa, Abg, Kakak
dan anak anak buah. Eheks :3
Tapi banyak sangat benda yg dulu langsung aku nda tahu dari langsung tahu.
Dan tu semua dari kau saja mau menerima atau tidak.
Orang tegur silap kita, kita terima.
Orang puji tentang kita, kita terima.
Sebab sejauh mana Allah mahu lihat kita.


Walaupun mungkin, tahun 2012 ini, hari ini saat ini,
tidak sama lagi seperti tahun tahun sebelumnya pada hari ini, saat ini.
Walaupun kau rasa orang yang paling kau sayang, kawan paling kau sayang
sudah tidak seperti dahulu, seperti sebelumnya.
Allah tetap ada. Ada hikmah. 
Sebab Allah yang benarkan semua tu terjadi, 
Allah juga yang akan merubah segala,
mungkin bagi kita buruk, tapi mungkin hikmah Allah benda itu jadi baik.
Siapa tahu? 
Hikmah Allah itu kan pasti :)


Melepaskan manusia mungkin sakit,
Meninggalkan manusia mungkin pedih,
Tapi, Allah tetap sentiasa ada di sisi.

Apa apa pun, selamat tinggal 2012.
Semakin meningkat umur, semakin dekat kita kepada kematian.

"Letting go means you come to the realization that some people are just
a part of your history, but not a part of your destiny." - Gossip Girl

P/S : My entry this time iz too seriousss u olls ! Ihiks.
Imma 22 years now. ãƒ½(´ãƒ¼`)人(´∇`)人 Ecewahhh :3

Saturday, December 15, 2012

Aiskrim. Pantai. Pelangi Senja.



"Apa-apa yang membuatmu gembira, jangan lepaskan. Apa-apa yang membuatmu bersedih, tinggalkan."
- Anonymous


15 Disember 2012 : Sabtu : 1710

Memandangkan Farah meninggalkan kami terdampar di pulau,
dan dia sedang berseronok di tanah kelahirannya,
maka kami berdua pun mencuba untuk menggembirakan diri,
menghiburkan diri dan menghilangkan kesedihan untuk ke pantai.
Camwhore horror. Hahaks :3



Masa gambar Syira ni aku cakap,
"Harap2 aiskrim tu jatuh atas kepala kau Syira."
Hahahahah :D


Dan beruntungnya,
masa sampai pantai tu, kebetulan ada pelangi.
Subhanallah cantik woooo :')
And we're jakun like, "Cantiknyaaaaa huwoooo." Hehehe
Allah hadiahkan pelangi untuk kami hari tu. Alhamdulillah.
Eheks :)


Selepas pelangi mesti ada hujan kan,
dan kami pun bergegas pulang. Ecewahhh.
Bergegas apanya. Bergambar pun sempat. Pfftt
Hahahaha :3

Walaupun hujan sudah menitis ke bumi. Dan ke tudung. Ahaks :p

Terima kasih Allah,
untuk hari hari sebelumnya, hari hari sekarang & hari hari yang mendatang.
:')






Monday, December 10, 2012

Career Plan.




The motto for this seminar :
"How I do anything is how I do everything. I am a REAL LEADER."
"I can upgrade myself."


09 Disember 2012, 0830 - 1700.

Memang agak bernanah juga kan sebab seminar ni berlangsung seharian.
Yang sebenar benarnya berlangsung selama dua hari. DUA HARI.
Sabtu & Ahad.
Tapi aku? Datang hari kedua. Ihiks.


Lepas ikut seminar ni,
baru aku terfikir yang selama ni rupanya aku langsung tiada
perancangan masa depan yang lebih baik.
Apa yang ada dalam fikiran aku,
sentiasa fikir : "Just go with the flow."
Tapi sampai bila? Nda kan sampai bila aku just go with the flow.
Mesti ada perancangan yang rapi juga kan untuk diri sendiri.


What I want to be after graduate?
Have a career? What career?
Going for further studies? But where? Am I still affordable?
Getting married? Tapi siapa calon? Ahaks :3
And now, I'm still in this room,
terpinga-pinga apa yang aku mahukan sebenarnya.
So sad of me.


Honestly, dari kecil aku hanya mampu berfikir,
"Aku mau kerja, beli rumah & bawa Ibu pergi Umrah, Haji."
Tapi, impian langsung tiada spesifikasi.
So now ! Dari sekarang masih belum terlambat kan?
Untuk aku rancang sebaik-baiknya.
*take my notebook and pen, start writing*


"Kita hanya merancang, dan Allah juga sebaik-baik perancang & menentukan."

*If I'm mistaken, please remind me*

Terima kasih Allah, sedarkan aku.

...................................................................................................................................................................

End with that. I will just keep in myself what are really my plan for future.
*blushing* :3


PHOTO SESSION !



Otw pergi ke seminar sangat diharuskan untuk bergambar. Ihiks.



Sesi berpelukan dengan mereka yang tersayang.
Ni penceramah yang suruh okey. :3
Tapi kami hari hari pun sayang menyayang okeyy. Okeyyy. <3




Dan semasa beratur untuk mengambil sijil. Weheee :3


So,

"If you don't know where are you going, you'll end up someplace else." - Yogi Berra


Plan wisely, for your future. 
Insya Allah :)




Tuesday, October 2, 2012

Them :)




Life is too SHORT to wake up in the morning with REGRETS,
so LOVE the people who treat you right, 
FORGET about the one who don't and
BELIEVE everything happens for a REASON.





In life, you don't get the people you WANT.
You get the people you NEED. 
To TEACH you, to LOVE you, to make you LAUGH.
To make you exactly the PERSON you SHOULD BE.





until then. bai ! :D

Tuesday, September 25, 2012

Random #3




"There's a point in every true FRIENDSHIP,
where friends stop being friends & became SISTERS."


my silly sisters !


Happy Tuesday ! ;)
xoxo